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I Will Sum Up.
Mar. 21st, 2006 10:26 pmFelt very productive and accomplished at work today. This is rare, and to be noted.
Beneath manhole covers, I heard the rushing of melted snow hurrying away. It was a good sound. I was tempted to wear a lightweight coat today to celebrate the onset of spring, but that would have been a Bad Idea.
Got back three rolls of film today. I am Excited. I have Pretty Pictures. (P.S. Stop nagging me to set up a Flickr photostream--I'm on dial-up, and it takes forever for me to load. Which is my way of saying that I've been thinking about it.) Really annoyed with the errant eyelash or whatever that has meant all my photos have a little shadowed swoop in the corner. Think I might have gotten it out last time I changed film, but I've thought that before.
Confirmed that I'm not testing this weekend either. Good: I wasn't ready, and certain of my kicks really suck. Bad: I'm now in a class of my own (as always, and actually how I work best) and behind the others. I'm expected to determine when I'm ready to test and confirm it with the Inst. Though I hide it really well, I'm a perfectionist. The Ice Bitch is hungry because I've starved her for such a long time; I see her behind my eyes when I look in the mirror. She thinks I'm dinner. Conclusion: twenty spin kicks and twenty jump-spin kicks a night until I get it right. Or injure myself horribly by careening into walls because I'm dizzy.
Since I've been working full-time, I haven't been able to write much creatively, and it's making me jittery. Also feeling post-partum loathing of Vicesteed. When I have babies, you'll all watch me very, very closely to make sure I don't drown them in the tub, yes?
Beneath manhole covers, I heard the rushing of melted snow hurrying away. It was a good sound. I was tempted to wear a lightweight coat today to celebrate the onset of spring, but that would have been a Bad Idea.
Got back three rolls of film today. I am Excited. I have Pretty Pictures. (P.S. Stop nagging me to set up a Flickr photostream--I'm on dial-up, and it takes forever for me to load. Which is my way of saying that I've been thinking about it.) Really annoyed with the errant eyelash or whatever that has meant all my photos have a little shadowed swoop in the corner. Think I might have gotten it out last time I changed film, but I've thought that before.
Confirmed that I'm not testing this weekend either. Good: I wasn't ready, and certain of my kicks really suck. Bad: I'm now in a class of my own (as always, and actually how I work best) and behind the others. I'm expected to determine when I'm ready to test and confirm it with the Inst. Though I hide it really well, I'm a perfectionist. The Ice Bitch is hungry because I've starved her for such a long time; I see her behind my eyes when I look in the mirror. She thinks I'm dinner. Conclusion: twenty spin kicks and twenty jump-spin kicks a night until I get it right. Or injure myself horribly by careening into walls because I'm dizzy.
Since I've been working full-time, I haven't been able to write much creatively, and it's making me jittery. Also feeling post-partum loathing of Vicesteed. When I have babies, you'll all watch me very, very closely to make sure I don't drown them in the tub, yes?